Bring on skiing season... I'm staying here!

So... I made my decision to stay here in SLC. I actually was planning on taking the job in New York, I was looking at plane tickets, getting moving quotes, and processing in my head all the things I'd have to do before Nov 1st. So, I went in and talked to my boss and told him that I was in final negotiations for a job in NY with my old employer, and he was in shock. He really didn't want me to leave, and we spent about a half hour talking about what my future holds with the company. It was a great talk, and I felt great to hear that he really values me and has been impressed with my work so far.

I really honestly love my job here, and I didn't like many things about working for Coltrin. So, after debating longer and weighing in the raise that my boss offered me to stay, I decided to turn the job down and stay here. And I feel so good about the decision.

If I were to go to New York, one of two things would happen. I would get wrapped up in the NY lifestyle, and completely forget who I am, or I would remain the same old Nicole and be completely miserable out there. I love the company I'm with, and I have a lot of potential and a lot to learn, and I'm looking forward to it all.

Life altering decisions...

I recently had a long conversation with my previous employer, who asked me to come back to the firm. He wants me to come back and manage some great accounts, take responsibility for them and be in charge of developing and moving forward on strategic initiatives for each of these accounts. This is a major opportunity for my career. The only thing is... the position is in New York. I previously worked in the Salt Lake office, but he wants me in New York. And he's willing to make it worth my while. Tomorrow, we're talking again and he's going to let me know how much they're willing to offer me.

I'm overwhelmed. Career wise, I'd be stupid not to take this offer. I love my job right now, but business is at a standstill and there is no way that I'll be promoted anytime in the near future. I'm scrimping by with my salary as a recent graduate. I want to pay off my student loans as soon as possible, I really need to get myself financially stable, especially with the economy in the state it is. This could be the answer to all that.

But... my career isn't the most important thing to me. I am so excited to be a wife and mother. Moving to New York would mean being in a culture where work is your life. There are few LDS members, much fewer than here in Utah. My social and dating life would be completely different. However, I can't just chill here in Utah and wait for prince charming to come my way and ask me to marry him. That's just stupid.

I guess I can't make any decisions until I know how much they are willing to offer me, but in the mean time I continue to run through my mind the pro's and con's. New York...how amazing that would be. I'm young, very young, and this is an opportunity that is hard to come by. I have nothing holding me back, the world is at my fingertips. However, I LOVE my life here. I have so many wonderful friends, people that have come to mean SO much to me. People I truly care about and it would break my heart to think that I may never see them again.

I don't know where the Lord wants me to go, and I'm not ready to ask him until I know all the details of the situation, but I pray that I'll have the faith to do what he wants me to do. I never pictured my life to be like this. I never thought I'd be faced with these types of decisions. I'm so grateful for the influence and guidance of the Holy Ghost.