Blessings

Do you ever have days when you wonder what else could go wrong? Where complaining just comes all too easily, and you get into this slump of feeling sorry for yourself?

Well, I've been good at that lately. Between working full time, being pregnant (SO INCREDIBLY TIRED!), planning for our baby coming, and trying to be the wife that I want to be that cooks, cleans, balances the budget, and gives my husband all the attention and devotion he deserves, I run out of fuel. Life happens, you get sick, cars break down, parking tickets accidently don't get paid, unexpected expenses happen, dinner sometimes fails, and not always does your hubby get the big fat kiss he expects to get when you see him after a long day.

Marriage is wonderfully hard. I think right now I need to start over, erase all expectations and hopes I had when I was a nine year old little girl playing house. I need to reflect on what I have right now and realize how lucky I am, and take life one step at a time. Sometimes it's easy to think about what you think you should have, all while hundreds of blessings are right in front of you.

Right now, I have a wonderful husband that still loves me when I'm a bratty pregnant wife. Who lets me be emotionally exhausted and cry through my frustrations. A husband that will do anything for me, because he loves me and is so unselfish. I have a knowledge of the fullness of the gospel and a current temple recommend, which paves the way endless blessings and peace. I have a job that is a really good job, a job that I'm lucky to have, and that has given me confidence and skills that will help me throughout my whole life. I have wonderful parents, siblings, friends, and the support of a wonderful extended family. And, of course, we have a child on the way, that will bless our lives beyond measure.

I think one of the things I'm most grateful for is the fact that I'm not laying under a pile of concrete in Haiti, praying to be discovered, starving, dehydrated, injured, and wondering if my family is alive. Nor am I wandering the streets looking into the faces of the thousands of dead bodies hoping to recognize a loved one.

Count your blessings. It will do wonders for your attitude.

Big News...

So most of you have heard, but yes, we're expecting a baby! The little one is expected to arrive July 3rd... maybe he or she will have fireworks to welcome them into the world. :) We're definitely excited and I'm already eagar for the pregnancy to be over. Here's a little background on how it's gone so far.

Early October: Find out we're expecting. Hurray!

Late October: Start getting sick. A lot. Not fun, but I can handle it. Miss a day or two of work.

Most of November: In about a matter of two weeks, I lost 20 pounds. In and out of the hospital 3 times. Received an IV twice, once in the ER, once in the doctors office because the ER bill wasn't so fun to receive. Tried lots of different medications, none worked, ended up on a feeding tube. Threw that up. Special family fast and lots of prayers... got better within a day. Had a great week, went back to work.

Beginning of December: Got sick again. Missed another week of work, almost ended up on feeding tube again. Horrible week, lost the few pounds I'd gained back plus some, ward had a special fast for several individuals going through health problems. Got better. Back to work...

End of December: Went HOME for Christmas. I struggled here and there throughout the month, but stayed on top of it by taking medication consistently and being careful with what I ate and smelt (seriously). Christmas was wonderful, only sick here and there. I hit 13 weeks the Sunday after Christmas and I've been doing fairly well since then! I'm actually starting to get a little baby bump. :)

All in all, we're so excited and can't believe we'll be parents in about six months. Although the little tike is grounded for making mom so sick.... J/K... sort of.

We'll keep you updated on plans, gender, name, and all the other fun details.